Epiphanies and Discoveries

  So today was a great day, to say the least. Generally school wasn't overly stressful, and the lessons didn't make me feel like I was in a complete state of oblivion, which is good! But let me get to the good part, my epiphany.

All my life (well, from the age of 7 or so) I've always been bent on becoming a lawyer. It's just something I wanted to do, and just knew I was going to do, and my life was pointed straight and focused in that direction. But somehow, there's always been this strange, intangible void I felt and knew was there but couldn't quite place. For example if I was asked why I wanted to become a lawyer, sure I could think of obvious reasons such as bringing about justice and all that, but I didn't quite realize (until today), just what it was that I was missing, and that is - passion.

Don't get me wrong, I was genuinely happy with the whole idea of becoming a lawyer, and I've been taking the necessary steps to get there, so I had the drive. But you see, there's a difference between the words 'drive' and 'passion.' Someone can have the drive and motivation to do something; however, they could lack the passion. You can tell when someone is passionate about something. I've seen it a lot, when I ask other people what they want to do in life, and they go on about their aspiration, and the things they want to achieve etc. I really see the interest and the ME factor in them, if that makes sense. It suits them just right.

Well, today I kind of had a turn-around. I was just sitting on the computer, talking to a friend and bam! It hit me. Book Editor. You could become a book editor. To cut a long story short and avoid boring you with my life history, I love books. As in, I LOVE books and everything bookish. Bookworm, bibliophile, nerd, call me any of those. Furthermore, I'm not exactly the loudest person on the block, and that is an understatement. I am very, very quiet...sometimes ;) I couldn't believe why on earth I hadn't ever really thought about that. It would be the most amazing thing. Doing what I love, as my job. You know that saying "Find a job you love, and you'll never have to work a day in your life."

I want to love my job!

I'm not going to naively think that the job will be easy and always fun. Sure, it will be hardwork to get where I want to, but the passion, the love I have for it will keep me going! I think this is it, this is what I want to be. I'm still going to have to give it a lot of thought, and see where life leads me, but...I think it's this! I'm so happy right now..

And for the discovery bit, to add to my already joy filled day, I found a necklace that I had been searching every nook and cranny of my room for! It was a Christmas present from my brother, and is probably one of the prettiest necklaces I've ever had, so I am so glad I found it. Till next time (whenever that will be), and remember, worrying gets you no where. At the end of the day, what happens, has happened. And what will happen, WILL happen.